First off I just want to say I know I haven't been very active on social media due to unfortunate events that have taken place in my life the last few months. I won't get into too much detail but I just want to thank those who have been patiently waiting on photos and those people who have continued to support my work while I have been on hiatus.
A few months ago, when I was home in Scotland I unfortunately had to say goodbye to someone very dear to me, someone who has been in my life since I was born. I knew this would be the last time I would see him and even though it was somewhat of a blessing I got to tell him how important he was to me it was the most emotional and heartbreaking thing I have ever had to do.
Once Jenn and I landed back in Canada and I saw my mum at the airport, I remember breaking down and falling into her arms. I had never felt so emotionally drained. A few months passed and there were some difficult days but around the end of September things really started to go downhill. For a few months there, there wasn't a day that went by that something didn't go wrong. I didn't want to fall asleep because every morning I was waking up to bad news. My birthday was one of the worst days of my life. Something I never thought would ever happen completely took me off guard. I won't disclose what happened but it completely shook me to my core. I went into a deep depression. I became someone who was so negative and I couldn't shake it. I would just hope things would get better, that eventually it would all go away. Then after it didn't, I eventually started praying.
But on November 17th, early in the morning, I lost my best pal. I knew it was coming, but you can never really prepare yourself. Cancer is such a vicious disease. It is cruel. To watch someone you love be taken over by this horrible disease is completely heartbreaking. You feel helpless.
Its been almost a month now and I feel myself slowly getting back to normal. Although there are still some challenges my family and I are facing, its better than how it was. I started going back to church because I got to a point that I knew I couldn't keep going on the way I was. I feel better since Ive been back, I feel my faith has been restored. I know life isn't perfect, there are going to be some really hard times ahead but as long as I have my family and my faith I know I'll be okay.
I'm sorry for rambling, I needed to get this off my chest somehow. While I am still on my hiatus from photography, catching up with editing and just trying to get back to normal I will be back in the New Year. I can't wait to shoot again, to be creative and do what fills my heart with so much love and joy.
Thank you for reading and continuing to support me on my photography journey, its something I will never forget and will be eternally grateful for.
Until next time,